Never Give Up on My Dreams

Why I never give up on my dreams ?

The reason why I didn't give up on my dreams is because my passion for modeling.

I first started modeling at a very young age but I kind of gave up on it because of my golf career. (You can find out more on how I got my dreams of becoming a model here.)

Although I gave up on it for a while, I still have the passion for it.

So I went out for a few photo shooting sessions with my friend at the park, home, swimming pool and so on. I begin to feel the connection between my mind and the image. When I look into the camera, I see myself living in it. And I can see my future in it. But as time goes by, my studies kept me away from that dream as I was studying day and night for good results. 

Although I'm busy with my studies, I still took some photos of myself with my phone and just imagine that I'm at a photo shooting sites like what I see in America's Next Top Model Reality TV shows. My imagination helped me so much throughout my high school moments and I still got that connection between my mind and the camera. So from that day on, I keep finding for modeling jobs to gain more experience but I keep getting rejection from everywhere because of lack of experience .

How I take in REJECTION and JUDGEMENT from others?

Rejection and judgement really effected my career when I'm still new in the industry.

It took me awhile to accept every rejection and judgement. While accepting all those negative respond and rumors, my mind was so messy and I'm just so stress till I became addicted to alcohol and smoking. As time goes by, an addicted became a habit. Until now, I'm still smoking and drinking but I'm able to control it because I realize that it's not good for my image and also my career.  

Now I'm stronger than before because I know How to handle every stress and negative thoughts. Whenever someone try to judge me or say rumors about me, I say some sayings to myself as a motivation such as 

• I can do better ( I say this every time when I look in the mirror)
•  If a person judge you or says rumors about you, they're actually talking and judging themselves 
• Live your dreams and live your life
• You are the boss of yourself, no one and nothing can control you

These are some motivation that I always say to myself when I doubt myself. Hope that it also can motivate you in pursuing your dreams. Stop dreaming and just take that big step and try it. I took that big step and look I did a pretty good job at modeling. Be confident with yourself and make a change for the better !


CHEERS TO LIVING OUR DREAMS ! 

Mother Nature with Black

Mother Nature is always speaking.

She speaks in language understood within the peaceful mind of the sincere observer.

- Radhanath Swami-

I'm very inspired by nature - you could say Mother Nature

I look at things around me and get all kinds of inspiration daily 

-Martha Stewart-

Nature is natural beauty.

Appreciate it's beauty, for there will be a time where it's gone and only 

memories remain

-Unknown-

About myself : Dream come true

Hi, My name is Ashley Claire De Silva and I'm 18 this year. My dream is to become a model and be as successful as other famous models like Kim Kardashian, Tyra Banks, Heidi Klum, Amber Chia (Malayisan Model) and Alessandra Ambrosio (Victoria's secret model). Being a model might be very stressful sometimes as I'm still on the journey to be successful in my modeling career. I will tell you more about myself and how it all started.

When/why do I have the ambitious to be a model ?

It all started when I was just a little girl, my auntie brought me to a studio for a photoshoot sessions along with my cousins. When I was in the make up room, I was so nervous about the photoshoot because I didn't know how to pose and smile naturally. During the photoshoot, I was just sitting on the chair and smiling stiffly as I was so nervous on that moment. After the photoshoot ended, the photographer said that I have a talent in the modeling line as I have beautiful facial features. After the photoshoot, modeling slowly grow within me and my life. As I got older, I was so busy with my school life and I didn't know how to get in the modeling career seriously. As I was from a family of golfer, golf become a big part of my life. So I quit my modeling ambitions and started playing golf. In the age of 16, I gave up on my golf carer because I played so badly and started back my modeling career again after putting it away for quite some time. So in order for me to start my modeling ambitious, I start with basics. My friend who is a photographer help me a lot in mastering the basic as such as getting comfort in front of the camera, poses, facial expression and etc. It took me awhile to master everything and I got the hang of it because my imagination helped me too. Sometimes, in my room I like to imagine that I'm in a runway doing catwalk and poses and just being a diva queen in my own runway imagination world which it's just in my room. Imagination plays a very important role for me as a model and who knows maybe even an actress too? But I'm taking baby steps, don't rush into everything in one go because it might get very stressful and messy. For now, I'm doing photoshoots, runway and product promoter to gain more experience for a better career in the future.